Birthday Wish List

Meant to post this for a while now :D! Birthday is like a month a way~ So I wanna make a wish list *wink wink*!

1. My own digital camera.
2. Teddy plushie.
3. I don't mind filling my wardrobe a bit more. :D
4. Dan Brown's - The Lost Symbol
5. A pair of sneakers.
6. Mobile phone
7. A trip.
8. PSP.
9. Pendiiingggg~~
10. Pendiiinngggggg.

I hope, I hope I'll have a better birthday than last year. I'm pretty sure it won't be hard although I should be having final exam then. Since Christmas is around my birthday corner..I want a Merry Christmas too.

Housiess, let's go Mines Wonderland ;)

Towards Apocalypse

You know I hardly ever do a movie review. But I think I like to talk about this one. - 2012.

I watch this last night. It is, in my downright honest opinion, a great film. I'm not awed or attracted by all the natural disaster and building falling down effect.. I'm just really impressed by the message this film meant to bring. I don't remember when is the last time I actually cried through out a 160 minutes long movie.

Although there is something I feel lack of from the overall performance, but there's a few particular scene that works well enough to blind me from the lack I felt. This movie portray the truth of human. It shows how some people can be noble.. some can be selfish, it shows no matter how bad a person is.. he always love his children so on and so forth. The scenery of earth dying, peoples dying.. bring me back this feeling of being helpless.. and this type of sorrow you feel when you heard tsunami strike.. earthquakes.. all this natural disaster, on the land you knew.

2012 bring the prophecy of apocalypse back to something-everyone-talk-about just like years ago where one of the predicted date is coming near.. uh back in 1997? and 2003? Only different this time is that this film reminds people that there is this one prediction from the Mayan's calender, that had always been there, and the date is approaching. It's really just up to us whether to believe it or not. After watching this film I'm sure everyone will starts asking.. Is apocalypse real? Is it really approaching on the winter solstice of 2012? Is that what the Mayan's calender meant to warn really?

I agree so much now that apocalypse is the day when things created by people will turn against them. Why? Look at the movie.. the falling building, plane crashing, ship sinking.. railway, cars.. kill more than tsunami did.

Part of the prophecy about end-of-day has been fulfilled. It is said that when the last part before the final of the prophecy is fulfilled again.. then we can expect that it is most likely real. If you don't know what all this Mayan calender, Apocalypse and Rapture.. all about, go have some background reading. But I need warn you here.. it can plant a whole lot of doubt about if it's true.. if you're really coming to meet what 2012 movie shows in 2 years time..It can be a bit terrifying.

Funny thing is that I've known about all these prediction for a long time.. but I just never thought about it until I watch 2012?

Spoiler alert.
If you ask me if I want to be selected to get on that arc in the movie? No. Getting up there means that you have to take burden of building a new world.. I agree with Mr. President.. Young scientist.. genetically proven people.. should get on. I don't see I can do much good to the process of building not just the world, but to preserves humanity and cultures. And I think I'll be left being guilty to be saved.. but everyone else has to die. I think if possible I better not know that apocalypse will be here.. because I'm not a afraid of dying.. but I'm afraid of the fear I will face before I die. So.. sudden strike will do. But of course.. it's all too early to end in 2012, so I hope not.

On the other hand, I LOVE THIS SONG. It's one of the soundtrack.

Wake up

Oh wow, it's been a while again. Time passes really fast. There's a lot of things going on in my life now.. not to mention, the endless worry about fyp, exams and assignment. Regardless of what's coming ahead, it seems to me that my sub-consciousness still like to keep my conscious idle around until critical time a.k.a due date!

Oh, on the side note, I've come across this little phrase when I was playing some quizzes in Facebook. It's not something significantly unique.. I just like how they put everything together. Here goes.

I'm not a perfect girl. My hair doesn't always stay in place.
And I spill things a lot. I'm pretty clumsy,
and sometimes I have a broken heart.
My friends and I sometimes fight and
maybe some days nothing goes right,
But when I think about it and take a step back,
I remember how amazing life truly is.
And that maybe, maybe this is the reason why
I like being imperfect.

I think the phrase says it all. You're perfect because you are imperfect. I hope I don't confuse you who are reading this. Imperfection can sometimes be a bless. Being perfect, what is the point of living? You are alive because you have to work towards the perfection. Isn't it? I suppose I am this hopelessly hopeful girl.. Because I think I can never live a life without something to work for, without something to look forward to. :)

And then ta-da.

:D!

Botanical Garden's Souveniers

So .. the last post is full of really happy and fun experience I had from the outing. This one.. I'll show you the painful experience I got from the fell. These are just some of them. There's more. And .. I got this from last Saturday. They are not going away anytime soon. They are not taken on the same day.. Looking at the bruises now.. Not too much different from the pictures.

Looks painful no?

Swelling. The bruise here is visible now.

This blotch got bigger now.

Ke Xin said this is pretty because it's purple. It's painful, Ke Xin.

And more on my knees.

Knee again.

All over my right leg.

And hah..This is not all. It's like 1/2 of what I got. The most painful one I have now is on my ankle. It's swelling. But the bruise is not too visible yet. Everyone that witness my injuries asked the same question - "WHAT THE HELL? HOW THE FUCK YOU FELL?" Trust me. I don't know. The more me and my housemates talk about it.. the more all this bruises turning up this few days.. ( yes more and more is appearing ), the more we think these bruises doesn't make sense. The suppose to be injured part have nothing.. while the leg that supposed to be safe.. It's just one word -OUCH!.

Anyway, great experience anyhow. Cheers. I'm sure they'll all be gone soon.

自作自受

I'm so lazy to write in chinese. Lol. Yesterday I went cycling with Alice and bunch along with Pei and Hui in Botanical garden in Shah Alam. Omg.. Good old days. Who would have guess one would cycle again after such a long time?

原来真的是有童年阴影的。起脚车。。 变的好不容易啊。跌到伤衡累累。所以痛痛痛痛！

看起来好像很行， 其实一点都不。

我们好不容易到了四季屋。 谢谢阿佩， 雪卉 和 杨姐 陪我那么久。耐心等我学会起脚车。四季屋现在是秋天。若是冬天有多好呢..

阿佩的四联拍很成功。很可爱吧？

卉，我和杨姐。

我们的脸出卖得我们吧？累倒要死。

四人大和照。

再来一个。

There's more picture uploaded in facebook. Although coming back painful, it's nonetheless a fun day :)

Rant

There's so much things going on in my mind at the moment. I feel so miserable.. why do I always have to find out things I should not. Won't I be happier not knowing? Sometime this really makes me wonder.. do you peoples hate me that much? Or I'm just someone so unreasonable to listen to what you got to say?

I'm losing everything. I'm getting angrier and angrier everyday because I just found out how unreliable I can be. It looks like I'm not the person I use to be anymore.. Or more accurately.. People just don't see me as who I use to be anymore. I must have sucks so much.. I'm crying and crying, because I become so unsure of what I'm suppose to do. I keep remembering.. I'm feeling this way because I'm a human. Something someone told me long time ago. I kinda wish of something I should not have done at all. This sucks.

I hate talking to my blog. But for god sake this is the only place I can find to write something. I can't find my diary.

I'm hurt.. and of all people.. This is unbelievable.

Sleepless night

Went to sleep really early just now. Then out of no where .. I'm suddenly wide awake in the middle of the night. I'm not sure what happened lol. Lately, each time I sleep I dream about something different. Something I don't even know. All I know is that I'll end up waking up and thinking about it.

In one particular dream, I see peoples recounting to me an accident they got involved in. The accident that killed them. :/ And the one I dream about during nap today.. I am being chased around in a very old and big looking mansion by unknown. I was scared in that dream.

Sigh.. I think I'm starting getting caught up within my own emotions again. This is bad. I'm getting moodier and moodier. I can feel that.. as if tears is starting to built up in me again. I don't know when does this thing starts to gain momentum to take over my everyday again. Is this because I know I'm going to starts leading the life like back then that I so despise? All this shit pilling up.. I must be stressing out. Shoo, go away.

I'm really tired lol.. I need this to stop.. stop doing this to me. I don't know how much longer I can hold on. I know there will be people I can talk to.. I just wish I know what is there to tell.. I have no idea what is going on with myself. I have no where to turn to..

OMG EMO POST!

On a side note, we have this Convent Class of '04 and U 6SC 1 of STS '06 group created in facebook. If you want to join us, drop me a message or something, I'll return an invite. I invited everyone I can remember to invite..
As for this.. this is for Convent Class of '04 group picture thing. I know this is bad. I made this in like 15 mins. I just don't want the thing to be empty with the question mark thing. So miserable to look at. I wish I can come up with something better later. If not, we'll have to stick with this until whenever I have something better. Or better yet, tell me if you have any idea about this. I'll do it.. even better, give me something to upload there. I'll come up with something tomorrow for the STS one.

So, that's it. I guess I'm going to try to sleep again then. Good night!

Desktop

Tadaaa, I change my doodles to desktop wallpaper! I thought I need a halloween mood and find that it would be nice to use the doodles as wallpaper. I added some background, and border to it.. Drew a space for my icons. Added some quote.. It says "Trick or Treat? - When there is no imagination there is no horror." Really simple editing.

I like my empty desktop. Workspace is where I store all my work-related files. Including, on going photoshop work.. assignment, project and school related stuff. Then Playground.. They are all my games' shortcut. Desktop Mess, the name say it all - random stuff. The icon is ratatouille-themed. There's no special event on going to mark on the calendar except some birthday.

So that's it. My clean desktop :D!