Can you?

Left wondering in my own world because of you..
Locked here because of you.

At times, when I woke up like today, knowing so clearly how much I'm missing you .. how much I love you.
If my prayers is heard, can you somehow let him know, how much pain i'm in?
Can you somehow make him realize..and turn back to see I'm still here..
Can you somehow.. make him contact me again..
Can you somehow.. let him remember..
Can you somehow.. let him come back..

Do you manage to get through a day without thinking about me?
I'm lonely.

You said I should open up to someone else.. Do you know.. if the person who use to love me so much can left me like this, what makes you think I can still try to open up to someone else?

I feel abandoned.. betrayed, yet.. I still don't know how to hate you for it.

Gone

You took away everything from me today. Like everything..
Why are you so cruel to me? I should be hating you, but how?

Promises

To you, they were mistakes.
Did you think about what do they meant to me?

Did you forgot?

I watched you sleeping quietly in my bed
You don't know this now but there's some things that need to be said
And it's all that I can hear, It's more than I can bare

What if I fall and hurt myself?
Would you know how to fix me
What if I went and lost myself?
Would you know where to find me
If I forgot who I am, 
Would you please remind me oh?
Cause without you things go hazy

Did you forgot?

You sang to me over and over again that day. I remember.

Then what..?

Shower

Okay, I am keeping my promise now. Stop bugging me ahem, you know who are are.This is a really random topic I choose to blog. I thought about writing this when I was taking a shower today.

Do you ever wonder if everyone takes shower the same or indifferently? I mean, you always talk about going shower, but do you actually talk about how do you do your shower? There's so many things to do in a shower especially for a woman. Ahh ahh, I know where you mind is going, I'm not talking about what YOU can do, just in a general idea.

Generally, what everyone do in daily shower is shampoo your hair, body, wash your face, shave, and etc etc. So what comes first. I personally do it this waay.

1. I wet my hair and body.
2. Shampoo my hair. Rinse off.
3. Conditioner my hair. Rinse off.
4. Shampoo my body. Rinse off.
5. Wash my face.
6. If there's a need to shave my legs i do it after all of this. YES I DO SHAVE MY LEGS. YOU DON'T?

What about you :D? I'm me like I always am, I do everything with a reason. I can't stand my hair shampoo run through my body AFTER my body is squeaky clean. So always, hair before body.What do you use? :) I think everyone smell like what they use. I'm using milk body wash for now, with orange flavor. So yes. I smell great.

Today's shower 20112011

I was terribly sleepy when I go to shower today. Hot water is soooo comforting especially I'm itching all over with chicken poxes. As I shower, I notice there's some stain on my bathroom floor, so I started to clean my bathroom.

From one end to another, the sink, the toilet. Then I thought, I might as well add some cleaner to the toilet and let it rinse off cleaner. Yea, I pick the cleaner bottle up and I notice the corner of my bathroom have some sort of tiny black thingy.. As lazy as I am, I decided that using my leg to try and see what is it, uses less effort. So, right leg out, step and.. OUCH?

No, not the black stuff, I stepped on. It was some dirt, but something poking out from the tiny bathroom wall under the door. A piece of the broken tile stab on my foot, blood gushing out, and I have a punctured wound.

My bathroom was covered in blood literally. Blood + water, not the most pleasing scene.. I sat on my bathroom floor for so long trying to stop the bleeding, and yes, I managed. And finally getting myself back into the room and clean my wound. I'm so proud of myself.

The broken tile. After I clean it.

My blood. This is after I "stop" the bleeding in the bathroom. The remaining blood after I got back to my room.

Sigh, so a very unforgettable 20112011 for me eh? I was planning to show you my wound, but I have no idea how to take a picture of my foot and make it look graceful.

On a side note, I added a picture taken to show you how it was like when I take a shower. Do not blink :)

Duckling.

Kei : aaa <3

Another start - 20112011

Hi readers, I'm back. Didn't I get a right a time to start blogging again? it's 20112011.

So it had been a while how's everyone doing? I'm surprise to see traffic is still flowing into my dead blog. I'm touched <3.

Anyway, life has been good I guess. I don't have anything to say as of now, but I am going to come up with something better by tonight!

I hope I don't eat my word again this time.

By the way, I am currently suffering with a once a life time desease at the age of 23+, chicken pox. A total blast with a 2 weeks off from work! (sarcasm).

Come back in a bit to read something else.

a post

I never keep my promise didn't I? I thought I was going to keep this blog alive. Last post was months ago. So.. basically I'm here cause I can't sleep and I'm waiting for message I'm suppose to be waiting. What happen recently?

I feel like my life is over.

Ok.. that was dramatic. Sorry. my bad, life is not over. I'm just joking. What can be more dramatic than this?

I'm now watching feedjit with nick, wondering what is showing if he log into my blog with phone. That's how bored I am now.

It had been over 212 days and counting. It had been that long. Today.. no yesterday was special. It's the day. Somehow I remember it. When will the door be opened for me again? Where's the light? Where is it. If this is how it is for a long time to come, then I want a break. I'm tired.

Dead

Just making this alive again.
Can you believe I didn't post a single post over 2011?
This mark the first in the year.

I'll start to post random things again. Nothing personnel. Really just because I need to do something. I need to have something to do.

One

When, I saw you for the first time

I knew you were the one.

You didn't say a word to me.

But love, was in the air.

Then you held my hand

Pulled me into your world

From then on my life

Has changed for me

Now I'll never feel lonely again

Coz you are in my life...

Love...

How can I explain to you

The way I feel inside when I think of you..

I thank you for everything that you showed me.

Don't you ever forget that I love you.

Love, I know that someday real soon

You'll be right next to me.

Holding me so tight.

So I will always be yours.

Although we can't be together now.

Remember I am here for you.

And I know you're there for me.

Whenever I want to be with you

I just close my eyes and pretend you're near

I see you, I touch you, I feel you, like real

Nothing can ever change what I feel inside.

How long must I be far away from you?

I don't know dear, but I know we are One...